I've been going through lot this last few months. I've relapesed an got back up again. I've had a new Lady in my life for the last 4 months and it has been had for me to trust her. I seem to look for stuff to not trust her about. I have caught her lying but have not said any thing because it would be a big fight and Would end up leaving her. I care about her a lot and believe she is some one I can stay with. I pray she is really in love with me, and not just looking for a part time lover. It feels like that some times. I need to take some control back, as I have let her run this relationship for the most part. I'm normally more in control. This is a good week to start that!