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I will be moving next to 402. Its a lot bigger and I have more windows for doing my art work. I'v been feeling pretty good and need to keep make sure I don't let that go to my head. I use to think that if I am doing good I should reward my self. But my brain thinks a reward is to go get drunk. Messed up thinking, I know. Me being aware of that before hand is part of my relapses plan. And to go talk with my sponsor. Any way on my way to work on some computers have a good day every body. Peace

On my way to a better day. I"m feeling good today. Had a rely go meeting last night. And seem to be more focused this morning I have a lot of time on my hands and need come up with some plans to use that tome up. If I stay still for to long. I will start to worry and think about old shit. That will get me in trouble fast.I also need to work on staying on track. I have a way of wondering off easy. Or just plan forget what I am supposed to be doing. Peace

Hi every body I'm feeling better after going on face book and seeing all to people i know.
Was feeling alone for a bit.Kind of hard for me to not have people around me. When I was drinking I had alot of other people around me to hand with and drink. Kind of sad really  I know from my past I will have to gain trust bake.....man hope it (trust) comes some time soon (:  Peace

Not feeling good today. I slept late and stayed in all day. Feeling kind of blue but don't know why? Will be going over to my sponsors house on Sunday for a big book meeting. Should be good. Any way thats all for today folks. Peace

Man was it cold today. I didn't want to go to pc for people today. Then I got there early and had to wait out side for 20 min till some one came to opened the door.I guess we have some big wigs coming by to check out the place in the morning. Maybe we will make the news? My place is starting to look good and feel like a home. I have been putting a lot of time on making it comfortable, but it is worth it. My head is really hurting and am going to bed. One more day down sober. Some one I look up to? That would be my sister. Even though she had a hard life, she still raised some good kids. Looking at my life I have not really had any male role models in my life. Any way Peace          (Me and my Dad before he passed)

I keep looking for something and never seem to find it, so even know what "it" is. Any body else ever feel that way?Kind of like my craving of something and not being fulfilled afterwords. Right now I want a Coke but I know that I'll want something else as soon as I'm done drinking it. That's life I guess. Any body that knows some one poor that is looking for a computer...send them to pcs for people. That's were I work at. Computers for 50 and laptops for 150 plus internet for 10 to 13 a month. You have to have proof that you meet the guild lines for low income. Peace

Not much to say after hearing about Mindy McMready. What a bummer.... Peace Mindy...

Had I good day, went to  a meeting at a church close by, and then came hope and had a late supper. Tacos are the greatest food ever! I'm behind reading out of my Big Book need to keep up on that. I'll read some tonight before I go to bad. My sponsor gave me a big rug for my place to day that was nice of him. My place has cement floors and get cold in the morning. Well my friend came over to talk before he gos to bed so I'm out of hear. Peace

Well I had a good slow day. Nothing major going on. I guess that can be good.
Have a good night every body Peace

Higher Power

Was at a meeting tonight and we were talking about the step 2 came to believe that a power greater than are self could restore us to sanity. Got me thinking about a time I was alone and in pain. I was living under a bridge and it was raining. I got down and cried out to god that if. He was real. He would give me some rest and faith. I guess it was not the right time, for I am now just starting to feel at peace.

Slow day worked for a bit and came back home. I thought I had to be home at 2:15 but it was the wrong day and I left work early for nothing. I some times wonder what its like to be normal? Is there one.
What do normal people do with there free time? Same things I do, or some normal thing I no nothing about? Man do I need to go to sleep. See Ya     Peace

Sorry for not putting this link in. Its a program to count your stop smoking days but will work for any thing.
www.dedicateddesigns.com

What would we do with out coffee? Good morning, hope every one is doing good? I found this cool program  to keep track of how long you have not smoked and also how much money to have saved. But you can also put in other dates like I did. I put my sober data and smoking data in. Just a reminder on my desktop to look at. Lots of snow up North. I know a lot of people up there hope they are ok. Have a Doc appointment today so I will miss my normal AA meeting, but maybe it a good chance for me to go to one I have not been to. Hope so. Don't like it when you first go to some place new. I feel to alone. Peace

Had a really good day with some friends  Bought one of my friends breakfast and BS some. Then went to my Saturday night meeting with my sponsor and another friend. Went out to eat after and they surprised me with some gifts for my apartment  Cool beans. Any way also got some meds for my back pain. Hope they work better than what I was taking.Was taking Zanaflex but it was know good for me, am now taking Ibuprofen 800 mg. I have used them before and they work good. i still have to much time on my hands and want to be doing some thing all the time. I don't feel right, like I should be doing something but don't know what? Almost like i'm waiting for some thing to go wrong in my life? Any one else ever feel like that? Any way this was at my friend Joels house in Tenn 3 years ago. He gave me this goat but i had to leave it at his place. Don't think I can have one at my place. His name is Jerry (:    Peace

Lots of time to think about my life. Where to go from hear, and how do I get there? Most if not all of the people in my life that I love will not have any thing to do with me. I'v pushed them away by going to prison plus being a really bad drunk. I know one thing I feel good being sober 60's and will have many more. Peace

Well I had good day. Stayed home and rad out of the Big Book. I'v been trying to read some every day, but don't always remember to. Should put  reminder on my phone. Ya I think I will do that now.I have my computer running my TV and I have to say it's cool.I can see what I'm doing now.  My friend came over with his brother and watch a movie. Kind of nice to see them sober for a change. I'm working on the one brother to come with me to some meetings. He was sober when he first moved in hear, but with all the people drinking up hear at the time it most of been to much for him, any way I'm working on it, but need to keep my self safe too. Good night...Peace

Had a good day. Dont feel so blue and all. Had a friend over for supper and a movie  That was cool. Most of the time he is drunk so I cant spend any time with him. I'm trying to get him to go to a meeting with me. Any way one more day sober. Be 60 days soon.  YeHa  Peace

Had a long day and my head hurts. Skipped my meeting and am going to bed.Peace

Hows ever body doing? I was out of touch for a bit. I started working for PC for People and it has got me behind on all my stuff. It's a good thing that I work, but I need to remember to keep life in balance  or I'll burn out and want to drink.I'm kind of watching the supper bowl. Not a big fan but like the TV adds. It's been cold hear and so have not been out much. Should be better latter this week I hope. I got a 30 day bus card so I can get to meetings more. Good news for me. All the meeting have been close to my house and I'd like to find some other ones to see if I like them any better? I'll  see what happens. Any way good night and sleep well. Peace